It's one of a kind.

2010-01-16T18:14:00.002+08:00

sacrifices.
watching tv has never been this peaceful after such a long time.
values and morals are taught in such movies.
the ones that will just give you one tight slap in the face to wake you up.
the ones that will made you feel guilty of.
made you shed a tear because at how true it is.
how it really relates to you goddamn life without you even realizing it.
it's so terrifying but so real.

those random meetups.
laughters that you will remember for your whole entire life.
where you can laugh again and again even just by remembering the joke.

it's all about oneself.

2009-12-31T19:44:00.002+08:00

Remember this day?
Exactly 1 year ago.
Just few minutes after the clock strikes 12.
You gave each of us a letter.
A letter of appreciation of our friendship.
Today.
Letter is still intact with me.
The knot you tied on the letter.
I know how annoyed you will be if you know that I loosen up the knot.
But I didn't.
Those words and content never fails to put a smile on my face.
It's the only way I feel close to you again.
Like you said.
I made what you are today.
I'm the same person who can make you angry and happy at the same time.
I appreciate it.
Alot.
It's totally unexplainable.
How I wish I could be close friends with you again.
Like we used to.
I don't know what went wrong.
Bottom line.
You will always be missed by me.
You will always be that baby girl I always know since secondary school.

Well they say.
You lose some.
You gain some.
Apart from all of these.
It's been a blessed yet hectic year I must say.
I love everyone of my friends.
My V2P2.
My Dolls.
My Laughing Gases.
My 4I.
My Fab5.
My Cousins.
My Family.
HAPPY NEW YEAR.

2009-12-13T04:45:00.002+08:00

oh what starts as a boring day.
outcome of it.
awesome.
outcome of awesome.
random awesomeness.
overall.
totally god damn awesome.
never thought it this way.
looking forward to more of this.
i love all you.

all i want to do now is sleep.
gosh it's bothering the slut out of me.
when i'm free, money is the issue.
i need $150 now.
3 months already.
geez.
testing my ultimate patience.
6 months and no pay.
and they're to kid who?
sometimes i wonder.

year 2009 coming to an end real god damn soon.
things happened.
no way in turning it back even if i wanted to.
suddenly everything came to a stop.
flashes of images just ran through my mind.
smiling at every image that pops.
all the memories will not and never be forgotten.
i lost.
i gain.
it's just how the cookie crumbles around here.

2009-12-12T16:53:00.001+08:00

Life is unfair.
Everyone knows that.
Even the handicapped could tell.
It's sucky to have to take the blame when you know yourself you are not in the wrong.
I'm actually quite pissed with that.
No wait.
I'm damn pissed.
I didn't ask for this.
Neither do I even have the heart to do it.
Humans being humans just can't refrain themselves from blabbering.
Especially if that is your second nature.
For you, I don't even want to know what nature are you.
Creature. worst.
You're the cause of the spark.
The spark that turns into flames that wiped out it all.
Leaving nothing but memories.
Egos and lesson learnt got into a hold of others.
You're still enjoying your moments.
Nothing may have changed for you.
But you have no idea how many emotion disruptive disorder I had to go through
Keep reminding and being optimistic about things.
When I know of the whole outcome.
In search of replacements was hard.
Because nobody could.
Dealing with your problems was just a waste of my fucking time.
Your emotions towards me was painless.
Worthless.
Being happy at the expense of others.
How pathetic can you be?
Get your own circle.
I lost it because of you.
You enjoying it because of me.
These people still do exist.
urgh.

enough of my rantings on you.
you won't notice it.
because we still have nice people around to have you around.
You're lucky and still mourn over your life.
Just enough for me.

POP was the final for BMT.
it was final for something else.
I'm sorry.
18th Dec.
Date of verdict.
Please please.

2009-12-06T17:46:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry.
uncertainty kills the mood.
i'm on the verge.
it's really not getting any funnier.
instead it's getting _______.
don't fill in the blank.

return it back.
but i doubt i'll get it back.

2009-11-22T18:09:00.002+08:00

emotions are mixed.
paths are intersecting.
surroundings and atmosphere are here to adapt.
everything seems so real yet so fake.
happening too damn fast with a blink of an eye.

reality has it that decisions have to be made for something to be concluded.
in this case.
my future.
endurance level has reached its limit.
mindset triggering.
nerves breaking.
not a soul could help any individual in this.
only words of encouragements and motivation will set the mind at ease.

individuals have to be ready for the outcome.
effects for those affected.
its really heartbreaking.
but truth hurts.

i love my momma more than anything in the world.
family is the real bomb.

828
4405
i love my dolls.
i love my laughing gases.
V2/P2 is the real shit.

give me a dosage of the sin pronto.

2009-11-01T06:08:00.004+08:00

Publish Post

momma's letter really made a big impact on my life.
for that i love you
taking things for granted is what i have learnt.
you only start to miss something when it is taken away from you
no longer there.
when all privileges taken away.
there you are
stranded like an alien on earth.
with very little resources and contact from your own comfort zone.

it's really amazes me how national can really made you think.
thinking rationally though.
that's why they say
boys become men after their ns.
a good verified statement i must say.

such short weekends.
so many catching up to do.
i miss everyone already.
i hate this shitt already.

2009-10-18T13:14:00.002+08:00

the botak boys for now.
next will be affyq.
you are so gonna die.
hahahaha.
nola.
you gonna have fun.
cos i know i am.
andddddddddddd
somebody has got to find out alot of my bad habits lorrrrrr.
warauweiii.
then somebody told somebody about somebody that somebody is with somebody.
and that somebody doesnt know a single shit about what that somebody is talking about.
haha.
confusing not like fad's blog?
lol.
i could never ever reach that standard.
i want to hit the movies.
but time is such a big issue.
damn it damn it damn it.
i've actually don't have that much to say.
but i just really hope my friends.
who is reading this.
like right now.
don't to mention names arh.
you should know who you.
i want everything to be normal again when i come back next saturday.
like it hurts me not to see all in full strength.
okay? ready?
setto smile.

next weekend
folks won't be at home.
haiz.
i'm gonna miss them.
it's like 2 weeks of not meeting them lah later.
then who is gonna kacau me?
who's gonna scold me?
who am i gonna joke around with??
who??????????????
okay. over.
haha.
have a safe journey to and fro okay mak and abah ku tersaaaaaaaaaaaaaayannnnngggggg.
amin.

171009
828
i love my people.

2009-10-17T10:43:00.000+08:00

How i spent my weekends.
after so long of not hitting the club.
the feeling is suuuuuuuuuuuuu-weeeeeeeet.
awesome-r each time.
especially when its with them.
and i gladly say this.
I have never.
ever.
in
my whole
20 years
of
life
to say that i waste my money with them.
fancy of people saying that

went raya with my laughing gases.
they always always made my day.
even though its not the same anymore.
if people refuse to forgive or give in during raya still.
i have nothing much to say.
egoistic and controlled i guess.
KEYWORD: GUESS.
so pretty jolly well get those facts rite aite.
people kept asking why.
i'm speechless everytime cos i don't know.
but overall rating for that day.
couldn't be better.
still the amazing race is on!
lol.
we won as usual.
hahahha.
kecoh kecoh beraya.

raya with them was great.
changing from different cars.
but then not complete.
but hey we had lots and lots of freakishly stupid endless fun to the 'maksyima'
racing.
shouting.
bitching.
laughing.
eating.
camwhoring.
dressing up for the day.
smoking.
why couldnt it be better rite?
ultimate of all.
total madness.

even if ns is in the way.
it didnt steal my friends away from me.
neither did it make me drift from my friends.
changes are here and there.
but it is up to individual to adapt to the changes and settle in.
not sulk over it and completely cut ties.
and forgetting their roots is the most absofuckinlutely unacceptable.
but life has to move on.
if it hits you hard.
pick up the pieces and promise that you won't make the god damn stupid mistakes again.
i've done my part in making everything smooth.
i may not be there for all of you.
but if these were to carry on.
i really have no say.
i'm sad to see this.
yes.
i've accepted it.
people change.
with a blink of an eye.
sarcasm is not your thing.
neither is bitching.
seriously.
get a life.
cos i don't think it's there.
cos i see no progress.
seriously i wish you all the best.
i will always remember the day you destroyed my friendship with my bestfriend.

i love my family.
i love my friends.
i love my most ultimate drug of deadly sin.

2009-09-25T20:29:00.002+08:00

Woahh.
What a raya this year.
spending last moments in a island faraway.
lol.
finally raya is here.
but shit is back again.
me with my cousins
and favourite nephew.
bab.. bab.
hahaha.
ehh cute nyerrr.
da besar confirm nakal.
lol.

it's been good training.
besides those freaks who refuse to listen to instructions.
aiyahh. FO laaa.
suck thumb and do.
endurance stage level 1 going for infinity.
confirm plus chop.
can go through it.

bbb.
sweetest poison ever.

2009-09-07T03:40:00.005+08:00

You give me that special feeling
I've been awake all night
There's a beat inside my heart again
its working overtime

No-one's moved me in this way before
its all so brand new
You got me so I don't know where I am
or what I'm gonna do

And I'm ready anytime
Automatic High
And I'm walking over Cloud 9
Automatic High

When I hear you calling out to me
It makes me come alive

and all the fears seem to fade away
and I've kissed the past goodbye

And I'm ready anytime
Automatic High
I got one thing on my mind
Automatic High

Every step, every breath, every beat of my heart
coming on like a new sensation

*still singing*
* lalalalalalalalalalalala~~~~*
at 3plus in the morning.
like what was i supposed to do.

2009-09-06T18:23:00.002+08:00

whoa.
i know right.
it's real fangs.
lol.
this is what you when you're in that descendant.
i like this shot.
i like this song.
one of my innumerable random posts.

subtraction in other words is minus.
goddamnnit i can't stop this sinus.

will you?

2009-09-06T04:29:00.003+08:00

Well got a few photos from last thursday's iftar at shanas' crib.
where all of us camwhore like there's no tomorrow.
thank god daniaal wasnt there cos he'll be cursing shanas.
and me.
LOL.
PICTURE TAKING??!!!
Soooooooooooo not DANIAAL MARICAN.
if he got the chance i think he would have just smashed the bloody goddamn camera.
So below
.
.
.
Here are the 'boys' going to become 'men'
in a week's time.
like what shanas would say,
"my boys are becoming man! yeay!"
with THAT tone.
yes.
literally.
LOL.
So the four of us,
zul, aidi, syahiid and me.
becoming the GANG GREEN GANG.
except for raden.
but in 2 years time, we will be doing this same pose
but to him.
PADAN MUKER KO!!

Below,
Shanas and Me
Dan not in pic.
hahaha.
the september babies....
awwwwwwwwww~~~
warauwei so act cute one.

Lastly ended with a bang of madness karaoke session.
I know.
during this month.
KARAOKE?!
we have GOT to be kidding ourselves.
but WE NEED IT so BADLY.
as Geylang is a freaking hot sauna.

So just Friday got a surprise from COOLSIX.
yes.
Thankfully all can make it.
Even though last minute but it was really worth it.
thank you sooo sooo sooo much.
appreciate it alotttttt girlssssssss.
ily all.
got a Levi's Boxer.
hahaha.
i don't even know when i'll wear it.
hmmmmmm...
okay not a good time to think about it for now.

just now was the awesomely great iftar at NUS.
and i got my tulang!
yeay-ness to ME!
but not finished as always.
got a 'SURPRISE' from them.
thanks to fad for TELLING ME EVERYTHING.
and claiming I WAS THE ONE WHO FORCED HIM TOO.
he's absurd i tell you.
sick in the brain.
i think he is hearing things.
you know those kind of sickness.
yes.
*fad ako tak batal puasa ngumpat pasal ko pasal its a fact*
*and and it's sahur so still got time if its counted as ngumpat*
anyways, back.
one phrase.
one hell of a fun iftar with camwhoring and and
playing stress!
woah. its really stressful.
thank you guys sooo sooo much.
and i really really hope you like the pictures i gave you guys.
although its not that nice.
lol.
and i like the hat, frame and keychain(LOL)
*winkz*

7 kisses or not?

i like to eat the tidbits wan-wan.
i wish goodnight to everyone.

2009-09-04T02:56:00.003+08:00

ouhyeessss.
another post.
before i forget.
HAPPY HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY TO MY ALL TIME FAVOURITE
SHANAS BTE MOHD IBRAHIM
2nd SEPTEMBER
andddddddd
MUHAMMAD DANIAAL MARICAN
4th SEPTEMBER!!!!!!!
you guys are so old.
damnnnit.
you guys are the best.
none could replace you in my life.
awww dannnnn.
hahahaha.
ok da.
mine's NEXT KORANG!!!!!

2009-09-04T02:37:00.002+08:00

motto for the week i guess.
random.

iftar with 4i was great.
as always.
celebrated nas's bdae as well..
and they sang us that birthday song at KARAOKE.
LOL.
that was so uncalled for.
hahaha.
on top of it all.
kecohrism is still in our blood.
looked through secondary pictures.
ohmygawd.
really really not funny.
like what we were thinking back then in school.
with that hairstyle.
specs.
what a day.
went back as sticky as glue.
cos apparently geylang was freaking humid.
yeap.
that's it.

today.
iftar with the coolsix or issit fab5?
LOL.
we'll find that out later.
tomorrow with the laughing gases.
at NUS.
awesomeeeee!
i'm still at contemplating on buying it or not....
hermmm... herrrrmmmmm......
well decide on that day lahhh.
enough said.
i'm shagged but i guess just wait for sahur lah.
it's 6 more FREAKING days.

2009-09-01T17:27:00.005+08:00

wnok uoy tusj.
ti pelh tanc yllear I
ngis eno tusj.

i want sup tulang so badly.
and i need my pay really badly right now.
pronto.
fast.
wad a raya this year.
haiz.
9 more days.
great.
just great.
cuzzens on the 9th of september.
4I on the 3rd of september.
Laughing gases on the 5th of september.
hermm herrmmmm hermmmm.
who else did i miss out?
ouh poly mates maybe on the 4th then.
haha lol.

some places in singapore is very the ulu
now its time to get ready for buka dulu.

2009-08-30T05:48:00.003+08:00

have you ever had that one moment when your world just stop?
when you just become weak and go err okayyy?
whispers that you think might just make your day.
even if its just that one word.
any 'one' word.
it's freakishly a hair-raising experience when you come to think about it.
well like that one whisper is just good enough to make
a horrible day
to the most awe-inspiring day ever.
but 1 thing.
i just to make it reality.
it's too virtual to be true.

i feel so kental right now.
i feel so syiok sendiri asking for a big tight slap.

2009-08-28T06:23:00.002+08:00

well it's no biggie issue.
said once and before.
going with the flow.
and see where it goes.

it's freakishly awesome to know that you're there.
it's absurdly wonderful to know you're already here.
it's greatly appreciated to know you.
goes without saying.
no doubt it's nearing but what the heck.
what a year i've had.
shits. no shits. shits again. no shits.
just want to fast forward to 2010.

juggling them isn't the best of my capabilities.
losing them isn't to my liking.
but friends comes and goes.
3 friends second that.
i have no say at all.
it's just the parts and parcel of how the cookie crumbles.
families are always the best.
sick and tired of talking behind each other.
and acting as if all were normal.
well you have to be in the situation to know the situation.
but my story ends here.
shall not say of any.
they who read and felt.
i wish you all the best.
kudos to you.

i'm dreadfully deadly sinned by you.

2009-08-24T03:53:00.003+08:00

please oh please.
i need the drug dosage of you oh deadly sin.
it don't matter what they say.
poison me with your words.
i don't know what to say anymore.

2009-08-23T16:15:00.002+08:00

It's raining heavily since morning and the atmosphere is god damn good.
To be fasting on a day like this.
whats more to ask right?
Just waiting as the days goes by until the date strucks 10 september 2009
the date that I would remember for life.
LOL.
Very melodramatic.

can't wait for break of fast.
tomorrow another tuition.
serious seriously.
I have no clue at all to what to do the kid.
I've tried all methods from pictures to figures to diagrams.
i have done it to my best capabilities but to no avail.
but oh well.

actually i wanted to post pictures of my hair.
LOL.
cos i'm so gonna miss it.
but my hair aint that va-va-voom.
so might as well keep it under my pictures in my lappy.
for my own viewing pleasureee...
yucks.
that's sounds so porn-ny.

just got pay from borders.
need to spend it wisely.
haiz. 200 only.
buat taik gigi also tak cukup sia.
but syukur alhamdulillah i got the pay.
amin.

poison by deadly sin.
attracted by the scent.
stuck on the looks.
devoured by the words.
officially indulge in you.
but at sixes and sevens at admitting it.

2009-08-22T02:15:00.002+08:00

ola everybody.
kinda lazy to upload alot of pictures.
just two is enough for now.
1st pic.
Dumbfucks celebrating national day.
awesomeeee.
2nd pic.
sending big bro off to honeymoon.
but now he is back.
i have to say this.
he is way way way better now.
why can't he be like this last time?
well they say a married man is a changed man.
LOL.

not too much of updating to do.
2 weeks plus more til enlistment.
becoming a patriotic civilian.
serving the nation as a SOLDADU.
blearghzzz.

it's getting from just a normal teaser to something.
just hope its normal.
haiz..
i miss my other laughing gases around me.
so so much.

and hello world.
SELAMAT BERPUASA.

2009-08-01T02:50:00.007+08:00

Familia.
The only photo that seemed nice.
Congrats bro.

Cousins from my momma side.
It's incomplete.
We have like 15 more who havent arrived yet.
Seriously I lost count of them.

Cousins from daddy's side.
Still incomplete.
Just a few more.
That's all.

My laughing gases.

Poly mates
The dudes.

My 4I.
The best.

My scooby doo gang.
hehehehe.

Us but incomplete.
heee.

Finally.
Wedding over.
He's already on his honeymoon.
Room is MINE MINE MINE.
MUAHAHAHAHA.
but kinda lazy to revamp it.
Since I only got a month to relax.
Still there are things to do around the house.
not yet done.

Torturous week over.
Now time for relaxation.
Perioooooodd.

time flies so fast.
I don't even know where I am right now.
aiya. sian arhhh
ehhh asilapp.
lu mana pigi?

turun park pegi lari lari.
i really really want ben n jerryyy.

2009-07-23T00:33:00.001+08:00

Thank you

for believing in me when I found it difficult to believe in myself...

for saying what I've needed to hear sometimes, instead of what I've wanted to hear....

for siding with me....

and for giving me another side to consider.

Thank you

for opening yourself up to me....

for trusting me with your thoughts and disappointments and dreams....

for knowing you can depend on me and for asking my help when you've needed it.

Thank you

for putting so much thought and care and imagination into our friendship...

for sharing so many nice times and making so many special memories with me.

Thank you

for always being honest with me...

being kind to me...

being there for me.

Thank you

for being a friend to me in so many meaningful ways.

Nothing prepares you for the day you realize a close friendship is over.

Whether it's been suddenly destroyed by an act of betrayal or dies slowly of being neglect, few life changes are as unforgettable and regrettable as learning that your main friend, whom you just knew you could count on, no longer has your back.

Often the hardest part is accepting it and moving on.

There's no shortage of smart advice on how to recover when a love affair ends.

But how do you process the pain when a best friend breaks your heart?

Who do you turn to for advice when your ace boon and number one confidante--who always had solutions for you--has now become the problem?

Now.

This is something I found and improvise.

For reading pleasure.

Adios.

2009-07-20T23:04:00.003+08:00

last week was fine.
ouh.
impromptu outing to little india was nice.
naan was greeeeaaatttt!!!
and and the handphones there are selling really really cheap.
and tekong is really really getting near.
omiiigahhhhhh.

weekend was the worst weekend ever for me.
i'm down with a freaking fever.
and the feeling is absolutely not you would want to wish for in a thousand years.
and the after effect of being sick is another NO.NO.
can't even taste my cigarette.
and ouhyes.
I have officially lost my appetite.
I only taste medicine in my mouth.
I hope i gain back my appetite by friday.
lol.

can't wait for 9th august and 13th.
that is if i still got money.
Nisa PLEASE PLEASE remind me again.
thannnksssss babeeee.

aighhtttt.
4 more days.
pee-ass: I REALLY REALLY WANT PIZZA.

2009-07-12T23:43:00.002+08:00

Look at the beautiful sky.
yea.
that's all.
hahah.
so lazy to come out with expressive words.
the week has been an eye-opener week.
so now it already came to an end.
and a few more weeks more to come.
2 absurdly busy weeks coming.
Can't wait can't wait!!!

Meet the new found family.
They found us.
Not the other way round.
Here's only 2 of them.
I've yet to name them.
There's 3 of it.
Some names that's not soooooooo malay.
and names that are cute and unisex.
Cos seriously speaking.
I can't tell.
hahaha.
any suggestions??

Well remember I had to paint?
I dragged fad along.
thanks.
I can't possibly complete it in one day alone.
da bagos tu dapat duet arhh.
Next time paint pintu.
OKAY?
hahahha.

Praying for something to happen.
Hopefully.
So here goes....

Ade negeri namer nyer Kuwait.
I really want alot of duetttt.

2009-07-10T13:39:00.002+08:00

Woahhh.
Painting the toilet really really sucks.
LOL.
Thanks Zul for helping.
Really Really appreciate it.
Its a few more weeks left to the wedding.
Woah.
Finally its over.
Then comes the fasting.
And then comes the green life.
Really fast.

It's now happening.
I've come to a realization.
Not taking this the wrong way though.
There's so much happening and its about time I change my ways.
No more of that sort.
Wake up lah nazzz.
Families and old friends are the still the best.
It doesn't kill for you not to have fun.
Get a grip.
You have someone now.
Cherish it mothafck.
Stop being shy and stuff.
god you're so kentallll.
Grow up.
People change.
Doesn't mean you have to stay sour and rotten like the way you are.
My friend once said.
People will start to mature.
Won't go deeper than that.
I don't want any clinging moments anymore.
blablablablablabla.
I don't what to type anymore.
It's always me feeling guilty.
Goddamnit

TIME TO RE-PAINT AGAIN!!
Tomorrow!
Physical training for those kids!

2009-07-08T23:28:00.002+08:00

Already made my mind about it.
Not going.
Can't go even if I wanted to.
The wedding thing is really pissing me off.
Parents just burst out and explode infront of you for nothing.
Saying you can't be depend on to do stuffs.
I'm just going to play shut.
That's the best.
And do what they do best.
Sorry ria.
Can't capture people who harass you.
I turned down the offer.
I know right.
I'm not free anyway to go for the interview.
Sigh.

Everything is about money.
No money.
Stay home till you rot.

Mood: Shitty

2009-07-05T18:18:00.002+08:00

this?

or this?

its a big thing.
I want to open my options but if i do i will have more to think about.
erghhh.
sixes and seven at these.
still thinking bout it. less than 48hours.

2009-07-02T04:05:00.005+08:00

Not been blogging again.
Don't have that ample time and comfortable moment.
Finally its now.

Cousin from KL drop by Singapore this week so that's mostly the reason why. Been touring and planning outings for him and making sure he enjoy his stay here. Just like how we enjoyed staying at his oh-so-cottage-like-paradise bungalow. Easy said. All packed activities. Everyday. Today. Just got back from zoo to ben n jerry to cashstudio. Wow. Really sweat those fats out today. before this was a clubbing session. then there's dinner at simpang session late night movie session. cluedo session. Eating. Sharing. Laughing sessions. How I wish these activities is a norm in my life. But tooo badddd. It ain't gonna work that way. Don't have nuff cash. erghh.

Facts of life.
Occurrence in life.
These things always got me thinking.
Behavioral effects.
What if affects and what are the effects.
I miss alot of people.
How I secretly wish I have adam sandler's remote control CLICK.
preeekkkk.
drama mama or whattt.

Stuck between choices.
For future sake.
Problems again.
I need it.
I need laughters to brighten up this mellow dark day of mine.
if only they know.
if only they understand.
if only they noticed.
ouh.
it really bothers me the fact of being late.
and how a person's mood affect the whole day fun activity cycle.
still pondering.

2009-06-23T16:40:00.002+08:00

I miss this so much.
I don't know what went wrong.
I want it all back.
My turn is next to go.
Issit gonna be any worse?

2009-06-20T04:11:00.002+08:00

Finally.
After what seem to be ice age.
Ice age of complete silence.
I broke that silence.
Thanks ifah.
I really miss damn girllllllll.
And bapak ako nak ko lipat kain pengantin.
Ok?
GO.
hahahahaha.
Problem.
Solved.
Mood: So happy I want to eat ben n jerry.

Khalq cousin is coming to singapore next week.
wuhooo.
Enjoy again.
Goodness.
Need to bring him to places of interest in Singapore.
Lol.
Like what the hell.
To think he would even be interested in doing.

Counting down.
2 months.
Not exact.
But atleast its something.
errgh.
Its ok.
Its alright.
Ayun ayun fight fight fight.
Ergh.
So lame.

and and ouh.
it was a nice opening up to you and the outing.
i'll be looking forward to more of it.
hehe.
ade karate ader judo,
now its time for me to tido!

2009-06-17T14:57:00.007+08:00

Getaway to KL was the most exhilarating moment of my life.
Got a break from the real life.
Spending time wit my relatives who stays there.
Bonus part my close friend came all the way just to be with me.
Thanks babes.

Party went on for 3 nights in a row.
Exhausting but fun.
So here are the shots.
LOL.
It sounds so america-next-top-modelish.
haha.

1st party night.

After party lepak session at Asia Cafe.
Its a cool place to hangout actually.
Although cigarette buds are everywhere on the floor.
Mood: Contented.

2nd Party night.
To Euphoria MOS.

Masks on.
Let's dance.

My favourite.

3rd Party night.
Coco Banana.
Dbl- O-ish but bigger and better.

I just had freaking effing fun.
But then good things don't last forever.
How I wish I could stayed there longer.
But it was something worth to remember.

And ouh I went to a wedding at malacca with my cousins.
And ifah I remembered you.
Cos got lalat at the food and it reminds me of the coversation we had.
I miss you.

2009-06-16T18:11:00.000+08:00

Well well well.
It's been so long since I last updated Mr Internet Diary.
Back to back camps.
Then to KL to stay with cousins and partyy.
Literally party everyday!
Now it's back to real life in Singapore.
Damn.
I'm starting to miss my getaway to camps and KL.

Anyways.
Below are the photos of the starting of my getaway.
Camps shots up first.
KL shots next entry.

Camp 1
Naval Base Kota Tinggi Camp
So then I went on the first camp with sexy syima.
Her first ever camp being an instructor.

Trekking was the ultimate workout!
Waterfalls.
Cooling water.
WOOOOOO.

I seriously don't know where she is going.
Trekking or tekkah mall.
Don't mind her arh.
There's always a first time for everything.
LEMAO.

Pampering ourselves with MADJACK right after the first camp.
Everything tasted so nice even though it's not.
Trust me.
It really happens.

2nd Camp.
SAC Camp Corri.
Still surviving.

My face already went all tanned and dark after the second camp.
Look at that exhausted-not-enough-sleep face.

Final Camp.
Si Ling Fitness Camp.
FITNESS?
I know right.
LOL.
Syima?
hey. she really pull it off being a fitness instructor.
The endurance level is very high.
The kids are superrr fit and some obese.
And the happening part ever.
There is no non-malay camper.
Zero.
Woa.

My group getting their HEALTHY food at sheng shiong.
Worst part.
They got the biggest amount of cash.
But they got the littlest amount of food.

My group with their makan cheer.
I made them do that.
LOL.

The after effect of not enough sleep.
You get this.

That's all for now aite.
Post the photos of KL next entry.
Sports in malay is sukan.
Now its time for me to makan!

2009-06-03T23:49:00.003+08:00

I'm back.
Exhausted from all the different levels of screaming/shouting.
Countless kilometres of trekking.
Few hours of sleep for more than a week.
Eating free packet food everyday.
Dealing with kids who just won't cooperate.
And a whole lot of fun.

I'm so sorry.
I'm most agitated and burning in anger with the fact that I'm not free to meet you.
Hahahadi.
We'll meet soon okay.

I don't what's the plan.
I want the old us back.
Please.
Forget about the rest.
It's just you and me.
Come on.
Let them be them.
And we maintain it that way.
If you are reading these.
Text me.
Extras are not welcome.

2009-05-21T15:36:00.005+08:00

GRADUATION!!!!!!
WUHOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
3 long years of hardwork.
Boring school lectures.
Eating during lectures.
Sleeping during class.
Cabot-ing lectures.
Still eating in class.
Literally BRAINstorming for projects.
Study like a crazy hyena and gorilla from the zoo.
Finally THE CERTIFICATE.
I'm proud to say I'm a Diploma Holder Of Diploma in Electronics.
Class of 2009.
Awesome!
Taking pictures here.
There.
Everywhere.
Gonna miss those times in school.
Haiyahhhhh.
Well.
When you got to go.
You have got to go.
Hope Mom and Dad is proud of me.
Cos deeply and frankly speaking.
I'm FREAKING PROUD OF MYSELF.
Come on.
Give me some slack.
I JUST graduated mannnn.
The feeling is unexplainable.
Excitement all over gushing through all my veins.
hehe.
That's all.
I love you mom and dad.
Muachks!
And hope you liked the video girls.
Especially.
EHEM!
Lol.

Ohya.
Some things are meant to be kept to ourselves.
So here goes.
BANG! BANG!
Done.
Smiles.

2009-05-18T15:35:00.003+08:00

I've had bad feeling for the weekend.
Alot of things cocked up.
But Saturday night was non-stop-laughing.
Seriously I laugh till I think I can get stomach cramps like gastric pain.

Saturday was madness.
Woke up late for camp briefing and reached late.
Only had 5 hours of sleep.
Planned to go to motorcross with azieera but plan backfired.
So met ayan, ipin, haikal and afdal straight.
Then another standing of 3 hours before the fighters really come out
and do their stunts.
Damnnnnn exhausted and tired and sleepy.
LOL.
The waiting session was really killing me.
Literally testing my patience.
Thank god the stunts are superb.
If not.
I so swear I'm gonna throw a bitch fit.

After some motorcrossing, went and meet the laughing gas team.
Laugh.
Eat.
Drink.
Pack.
Home.
Then off to sleep again for another 3 hours and off to tuition.
Sial ar.. It's like pre-camp already sia.

Okay. From next week onwards.
I'll be gone for 2 weeks.
Not for a week.
So blog gonna catch some dust.
Till we meet again

Ouhya.
Before I forget.
It's been sometime since you actually text me.
Just a question.
Why did you delete me from Facebook IFAH?
I just want to know why.
That's all.
And oh yea.
By the way ifah.
Nice Blog.
Keep updating yea.
Toodles my friend.

2009-05-13T23:20:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I just wonder.
What have I done to deserve this.
All what's happening around this diminutive world of mine.
Is there a nice, sweet ending to it?
Or just those mean and never gonna see you again ending?
I have a bad feeling bout this.
Real bad.

2009-05-12T00:49:00.009+08:00

HAPPY 22nd BIRTHDAY NAZATUL SYIMA!!!
All grown up aye.
Hey! The surprise part was hard okay.
all cute with her butterfly dress.
hehe.
We still love you.
Hope you like the video.
Specially made and chosen for you.
Smiles :)
Then we found a nokia phone at azieera's house.
LOL.
It's pretty big.
You judge.
Imagine buying that phone and going out.
HELLO?
.
.
.
.
.
.
.

I swear to god it's a freaking NOKIA HANDPHONE.
ouhkay.
That's besides the point.
So after the surprise with video and cake.
We went to Vivo to watch XMEN.
and SORRY AFFYQ we are late.
and ate at pastamania.
Movie was abit disappointing
But the fighting scenes were oh-so-fucking-cool-shit-ever
and i mean it ever!
If the persuasion power really exists,
I would want to have that.
Damn sick.
So now the pictureesss.

Hope you had fun on your birthday.
I still want to eat naan at AL-Azhar.
Can?
The naan there meletop cun melecun so pretty and sexxxxxxyyy.
Together with the divalicious butter chickennnn.
Woah.
Orgasm is what you get.
Lol.

Next up.
Went to Hilda's Graduation.
The food is superrrr nice.
I'm so sorry for hilda that her parents cant be there for her during her graduation.
Due to specific reasons that can't be mention.
But so happy for her.
Altough she's my friend's sister.
ahahaha.
My turn is next week.
Wuhoo!!!

Eating is what I do best.
mmmmmmmmmmmmm.
And so comes the question.
Would anyone still wanna date me if I look as retarded as this?
Any takers?
Come on.
LOL.

Fancy saying that when you asked for it.
Whatever.

Anyways.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!
I will always love you no matter what even of whatever you did and said to me.
MUAAAHHHHKSSS!

2009-05-07T03:53:00.002+08:00

How is that being true?
You know what.
I've found out something.
I just can't believe it.
That's all.
It's so fast.
Too fast that even Japan's fastest bullet train can't even catch up.
Find it crap and meaningful at the same time.
I felt like crying.
Felt like venting this furious state of mind right into your face.
The urge is too strong.
Hard to resist.
To control.
It's no longer natural.
It's more like a forced task.
Why?
Then the smart alec is trying to act all smart to go around.
Well you know what.
You bloody wait for the time.
Time for me to really give you a piece of my mind.
Literally.

Thinking of you makes me happy.
But I'm afraid.
What if it changes everything?
I don't know where to start.
Well someone told me go through the hard moments first.
Enjoy the outcome later.
I'm paranoid.
I'm starting to fall for you.
Like the twillight saying goes.
Everything about me attracts you to me.
My scent.
My eyes.
My looks.
My voice.
But this is the other way round.
Minus the voice.
The scent.
But additional of jam packed fun behaviour and attitude.
Smile sweets.

Oh yes.
Beginning of 25th May.
I'll be gone for a week.
Need a break from the real world.

IZZAHHHH.
Chee siang ok?
Raudhah?
Masih tolong pat masjid eh?
Ok Ok.
Alhamdullillah.
LOL.

2009-05-05T00:48:00.003+08:00

Pictures always tells a thousand words.
So I've been told.
Cross out the Pie.
It's hard.
Especially when you are scared of the outcome.
I know I am.
Oh damn.
Hate this feeling.
Like fad said.
Relationships come from strangers to friends to love to lust.
haha.
Like what the hell.
But I kind of agree to that statement of his.
I guess I'll just have to buck up.
Or should I just wait?
They say nice guys finish last.
I don't want to be too nice.
And I don't want to be too pushy.

I really don't understand you.
After all that he has done to you.
It's about time you stand up for your rights.
Come on.
To me.
He is just a sweet talker m*****f*****.
Like really.
What has he done to you?
What a question for him to say that?
But this is just my advice to you.
You can be loved dearly by another significant way better than him.
Don't push yourself too hard.
I know it's hard to let go the person you love.
But getting hurt everytime you're with him
is like drinking water everyday.
Where it became a norm and you suffering.
Just think it over aite.
We still love you.
Like you said.
I've never wasted 3 seconds of my life to make you laugh.
To me, the 3 seconds is good enough to make the pain go away for a pretty long time.

2009-05-04T01:48:00.012+08:00

What a weekend.
I love my weekend.
Especially this weekend.
Thursday was so uncalled for.
It's another impromptu movie with loud music and happy car ride session.
From TP to town to chalet to cineleisure.
Oh wow.
So let the picture do the talking aye.

Me and ayan were busy watching a pre movie before our real cinema.
the movie where everyone has watch like a kazillion times but not my dear friend Farhan.
Wanna noe?
Wait.
After these two pictures.

Went to drive thru and had Mac's.
Pitstop and we watch....
UPIN n IPIN.
Lol.
I know right.
Ayan did not watch that before.
LOL.

On friday was another impromptu birthday surprise for the bitch.
Nur Faiqah Jamalludin.
However u spell that name.
Hope u like the shoe aite.
It's not just a shoe.
It's Springfield.
HAHA.
Went to timbre.
Blasting day with non stop laughing continuous eating and dehydration due to poor service.
Can you imagine?!
The waiter was like
"Oh sorry sir we only top up ice water once."
I was like what the hell.
Are they like serious.
And you provide service charge of 10%?
Overall. Complete Madness.

TO Q.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AGAIN GURRLFREN.
LOVE YA.

Next on saturday.
After my can-make-me-go-crazy-with-her-not-knowing-the-answers tuition.
Went to Dempsey.
Yeay!
Finally.
Ayan n Azieera.
And Ipin joined us in the middle.
I know.
Out the randomness bluey night.
The more the merrier.
Ice cream-melts-in-my-mouth-flowing-with-chocolote-fudge-base-covered-with-brownie!
I want to go again.
Plus the great live singer.
haha.
I still prefer the other singer.

And we found this on the hill.
Freaking humongous.
I swear that thing can just jump out and eat me alive.
I won't be surprise at all.
Eergh.

Oh fad.
These few pictures are for you.
HAHA!
That's all.

And ipin fucking hate taking pictures wit no flash.
Wonder why.
Hiding some oozes are we?
LOL.

Bottom line.
I miss you baby girl.
That night was a blast.
I enjoyed every moment with you.

Same goes for all the people in my pictures.
ROCK MY WORLD!
and please.
continue rocking it before 20th August.
that's the starting of fasting month.
and jolly well know what happens in the middle of fasting month.
urrrggghhhh!
Till then,
sayor nara.
sayor pasar lagi murah.

2009-04-30T01:19:00.002+08:00

HINGUS HINGUS HINGUS!!
signus day and night.
me can't stop those sneezing and mucus all oozing out.
eew.
can't stand it sia.
my friends gave up on me.
can see why.
just look at ayan's face.
he seems so disturbed and agitated by my sneezing.
this picture was taken last friday.
and seriously we do not know where to go.
just great.
sat.talk.share.
well that is what you do when you do not have.
$$KA-CHING$$
crappy but fun.

Meet luqman.
I made him say NOT FUNNY.
should have recorded it.
shucks.
always slip my mind.
so cute and so boncetttttt.
makan makan makan.
maman maman....
ish ish

lastly.
the apples of my eyes.
kakak and dedek.
Kakak:
Nur Alesha Adriana
Dedek:
Muhamad Adryan Shah.
hope the spelling's correct.
haha.
aren't they the cutest siblings??
haizz.
they just made my day.
they'll go with their innocent cute faces like
"wawak datang???"
"wawak dedek mok"
means small brother is fat.
wah wahh.
excuse her lahhh cos she fucking skinny.
unlike her mom.
eh ria??
lol.
I love you all.

2009-04-26T05:34:00.002+08:00

Well this picture is suppose to be the superheroes.
But then.
oh well.
Just figure each of them out yea.
Especially the one with the engagement dress.
Wonder what superhero is she.
Lol.

Well the week has been quite busy.
Going out late.
Met ifah after a very long time.
Well that girl has been hibernating too long.
As long as I can remember.
Missed her so so so much.
Just can't say much about her life aye.
Hope she's happy with everything.
Cos apparently she enjoys sleeping to the max.
Proven by FB.
Lol.

Had a photoshoot with the girls.

And pictures were deleted thanks to man in uniforms.
I really don't get it.
It is just a building.
What can we possibly do with the photos?
So insecure.
Like the saying goes.
"Beauty has a price to pay"
That's what you get after taking nice goodlookin shots
with extra good looking models.
LMAO.

Well just an encounter during one of the weekdays.
Are Singaporean that selfish?
Are they being too ignorant of their surroundings?
Or just plain dumb?
This goes out to some of you who felt the pinch.
I was in the train with a friend going to town.
When a lady who is pregnant.
I repeat.
PREGNANT.
board the train had to stand up.
Well nobody offered the seats.
We were waiting for somebody to give up the priority seats to the poor lady.
But none.
Well we were quite a distance from her so we assume the ones near her would notice her.
NONE.
after the next stop.
Still.
Nilch.
Zero.
Where has the courtesy gone to?
Priority seats are made for the priority ones.
Keyword: Priority.
Unless there are none who deserve that seat perhaps you could be in that seat.
I admit I do sometimes seat at priority seats.
But what if there are people who really need it?
Where's the initiative of the people?
I admit maybe sometimes I didnt notice these people
and end up not giving up my seats for them.
But come on.
You can't be that oblivious to the surrounding rite?
Unless you are asleep.
Then that's a whole different chapter.
But ohwell.
I'm in no position to judge.
Just saying out my thoughts to my friends.
So please.
Have courtesy.
Be more kind and alert to the ones who need it more than you.
Thank you.

OH OH OH OH OH!!!!!
I got the verdict letter.
damn it.
My lucky star is seriously not on my side.
Maybe I don't pray hard enough.
Oh wait.
I miss alot of prayers.
So padan muker to me.
Got into ARMY.
2 days before my BIRTHDAY.
a WEEK before HARI RAYA.
AND during the FASTING MONTH.
It couldn't get any worse than these.
Could it?
Well time will tell.

I so need to go to
REBELZIRCASTJAMESDBLOZOUKOVERSEASANDPARTYALLNIGHTLONG!!!!
then.
a week later
MASJIDGHUFRANALANSARSULTANALKAFF
and mintak ampun.
AMIN.

I love you my friends.
And families.

2009-04-22T02:11:00.002+08:00

It's been quite some time since I updated.
Well bout me.
Sick and tired of my current job.
But my manager insists on me staying.
Its not of colleagues.
Its of the boredom and lethargy that the work produces
That is the one which pissing the shit out of me.
Need new job.
Desperately.
Pronto.
Fast.
Damn I'm such a complainer.
Haha.

Always wondered why we found out about stuff long after they are done.
For example.
Only found out you've been talked about like after 3 months after the real incident.
Or found out that your friend stole your pens during sec 3 when ur 18.
hahaha.
better still. found out about something that should not be known to you.
it's just something to reminisce over.
something to reflect back.
something you thought or wished you could change about.
these thought keep running through my mind.
so addictive.
can't stop it.
imagine a heavy and fast moving traffic.
yes.
now put that in my head.
get it?
lol

tuition's per normal.
find it super duper hard to transfer my skill to one of the kid.
damn its hard.
now I know how my teacher felt when I was being super duper dumb in class.
and irritating.
but can't blame it on me.
I do have a loud voice.
Like what me and lala always say.
We have a fucking hard time whispering.
tu wak ek ek!!

21st May.
Graduation Day.
Need new clothes.
Shoes.
Pants.
Tie.
I don't have all that.
Maybe I'll borrow from anyone.
Lol.
And May there's alot of flea markets going around.
Anyone in for it??
come on.
come on!!!

There's only so much one can take until it reaches one's limits.

2009-04-14T05:33:00.002+08:00

Aren't they the cutest thing?

damnnnn.

They're my laugh addicts.

FUCK.

NOT FUNNYYYYYYYYYY

2009-04-12T05:45:00.005+08:00

Ever felt that much work was done but never appreciated?

It is damn saddening to find out that it is the least accepted.

I have always thought good things are never seen.

One slight mistake wrecked the whole nice painting.

Geez.

They call it paranoia.

I call it ungrateful.

I have lost my track of days.

My money.

My life.

My world.

I want it all back.

Money makes the world go round.

It's the antidote to life.

The addiction.

My drug.

Fast & Furious 4.

Awesomely-turbofied movie.

X-men Origins will be my next catch.

And and and

Transformers.

Robots in disguise.

Childhood in real life action.

Total dream come true.

Only that the characters differ in some ways or another.

Other than that.

It's to die for to watch it in the cinemas.

Minds Cafe certainly a fun and worthy last minute hangout.

Despite the 48 hours of no sleep.

With no caffeine filled throat to the stomach.

Just food.

Drinks.

Smoke.

And non-stop-hits-laughing-out-loud.

Pictures upload soon.

Disgusted and disappointed.

Yet still thinking of you.

Hey love.

2009-04-08T01:12:00.002+08:00

That's for anonymous.

I had this service audit thing at work.

Where the higher management comes and checks the store and the service.

Fucking hell my manager makes me poop in my pants for no reason.

He made me believe we didn't score well.

But we did.

Well didn't pass but improve alot.

Besttttttttttttttttttttttttttttt.

Salary was so little ehhhhhhh.

Nabei.

How am I gonna survive sia.

Cheebs.

But ohwell.

There's tuition to help me out.

Ayan is sooo getting his jacket sia...

I havent even renew my bike practs.

Shucks.

Going ubin on friday for cycling.

Been a longgggg time since I step onto that island.

and its about time i get physical with my activities.

Like a real outdoor sport.

Lol.

So corny.

I so want to go dempsey again.

anyone?

Just a qoute I got.

'Stop looking at what you don't have

But appreciate what you already got'

2009-04-06T16:45:00.003+08:00

What a week.

Well last week everybody had their new haircut.

This week is party week i guess.

Wednesday was an impromptu outing to st james.

Rayyan Affyq met Amali Afiq for the first time

LOL.

Mampoz tknk.

The music was fucking nice.

Then somebodygot 3 tight slaps from minah.

Well it was sad to know.

But actually funny when we thought about it.

LOL.

Met lala and her sister.

And nisa and nat.

Next followed lala to CDA the next day for aanis POP.

I was not really into anything there but the FOOD!!

ape la lala.

hahaha.

I wanted to take more food but she was fucking embarassed.

hahaha.

that's what you get for asking me along.

MORE FOOD!!

its nice okay.

even though the place is like rundown.

but the food is absolutely delicious.

More...

I would like to thank syima for cheering me up.

And bringing me to Al-Azhar.

The place where I always wanted to eat with my friends but none of them wanted to.

Lol.

It was really fucking nice of you.

Even though going the wrong way and up the curb with the music on loud.

Even you are still in a post-breakup-attitude.

It was perfect.

Thanks.

Saturday wasnt really my day.

But then no use sulking and bragging about it.

So....

went to MAKAN BESAR at habibie with families and cuzzens.

We practically conquered half the space there.

Fucking full eating there.

After which.

Head on to rebel and party to celebrate ayan's birthday.

Enjoy~

HAPPY 19th BIRTHDAY AYAN!!

Oh-so-happy!

Overall.

Fun to the maximum.

And worth the working hours paid off.

Didnt wanna talk about it.

Maybe complain.

Its kind of not needed to be talked about.

Trying to prove something.

But need time.

2009-04-04T16:38:00.001+08:00

To anonymous:

Don't make the situation much more worse.

If I were you I would just shut the hell up.

I guess you are just brain dead.

I should have thought before I speak.

Yes I am fucking pissed with you.

For fuck you did all those things for?

Gain trust?

Respect?

Or better still.

Gain friends?

If I don't fucking care about you.

I won't be fucking pissed at you.

You think you some kind of problem solver?

You are never neutral.

You know the makcik kpo jiran sebelah?

You are exactly the same.

Go to every fucking mirror in the god damn beautiful world of us.

And look damn close till your pores touch the surface of the mirror.

Reflect on what you've done.

If you don't realise.

Go to level 12 of your apartment block.

Jump down.

To work:

Giving me hell shits with the service audit.

I admit I'm at wrong.

You guys can take back my employer of the month award.

Thanks.

I'm feeling sick these few days.

I guess just thinking about the problems I have just gives me the headache.

Thanks alot Syima for cheering me up.

It was really damn nice of you to bring me to Al-Azhar.

I really need that girl.

Thanks.

Now going my aunt's house for sappada!!

YUM YUM!!

2009-04-02T14:11:00.003+08:00

Just shut it up you cunt.

You aint know nothing about that whole damn shit.

I don't want to be the who said I told you so.

So now its a fact.

I'm out.

Where were you when I need you the most?

2009-03-31T00:50:00.005+08:00

Dinner & Dance was a blast.

Really meant it.

Freaking awesome.

Table 1 really won alot of gifts.

From vouchers to....

IPOD TOUCH!!

cool shit or whattttttt.

well the theme was OCCUPAZIONE.

When I Grow Up.

So meet the workforce.

Prof Raphael Hadi

Discipline Master & Mistress

Mr Sya & Ms Izzy Anne

Ms Dyana the Ballerina

Ms Yaswarya Jade Rai the CNN reporter

Prata with chocolate fudge and ice cream!!!

FUHHHH!!!

SEDAP!!!!!!!!!!!

was hungry again so we ride down to simpang and took a bite

well that phrase is for syafiq, izzy, yas and nat

I didnt take a bite.

hahaha.

you all know what happened.

went to return izzy's uncle's car and we camwhored.

nat was feeling hot with her tu-tu.

so....

I tried it on.

And this is how it looked on me.

LOL!

act cute sia.

chibai.

like what izhan or fad would say...

"Mampoz! Bapok terlepas!"

hahahaha!

Syafiq took shots from his D90.

So here are a few

So that's how I end my poly days.

I'm so gonna miss everyone.

Now I'm applying for SIM or SMU.

Please pray i got it.

So after NS mugging it is.

woahhh.

To Lala,

Hope you enjoyed that night.

I know I did.

Hope you had fun.

Which you did lah.

ahaha.

Just to reply to your blog entry.

And and and

to my favourite auntie of all.

and dumb lil cousin.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MAMI TAM & NUR FARAHDILA MD DIN!!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

sorry no presents.

Speechless as it seems.

It never ends.

Flashbacks.

Screenshots.

Playing in my mind.

Such disappointment.

can i say something?

2009-03-23T15:47:00.011+08:00

So for 2weeks our dear friend has gone to serve the nation.

So after a long time.

Meet ayan.

Muhd Farhan Bin Amin

LOL.

Abang2 Police arhhhh....

yeap picture tells it all.

Went play 'HeadBands' our version.

At Starbucks.

It's good to have friends working there.

Drinks tat cost 14 bux will cost you only 10bux.

cool shit or whatttttt.

then went sheesha since bookout boy wants sheesha so much.

After that.

Aimless.

Nowhere.

Our legs just keep on moving.

Overall.

Extreme madness.

Cos i'm tired.

Not of walking.

But deeply laughing-banging-pushing-people-off my lungs out.

I love you guys.

omg so kental.

I NOE!!!!

It was a last minute thing.

Was fun.

Music was good.

Should go there affyq n fad.

Seriously.

Its for you guys.

You totally ignore me.

Thanks.

PLEASE PLEASE!

Cik ju!!

Money....

Please.

I love you lahhhhh!

Next month.

Motor.

Here i come.

2009-03-19T03:36:00.003+08:00

Didnt really go out and enjoy or whatsoever.

Let me see..

Ouh yes!

I followed affyq to this salon behind my block.

It's like Miami Ink but salon version.

But not up to standard.

Then browse through the magazines for the hairstyle that affyq wants.

then the hairdresser.

whom i thought was a mly until i saw THE CROSS on the wall.

Oh Lord.

He gave so many inputs on what to do.

And affyq as usual indecisive.

After much talk.

Discussion.

Now

You Have.

Affyq New Hair-do..

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Its mohawk with tribal on one side.

Cool shit or whattttttttttttttttttttt.

So jealous.

And yet he is paranoid.

Why?

Cos people kept on saying its nice.

That he thinks its not.

God please help this poor innocent soul.

My twin brother.

Please.

I beg of you.

Next week D&D siaaaaaaaaa........

wahhh.

Don't know what to wear....

Arh fck it arh..

Hmm.. Maybe maybe....

Such a headache.

Can't wait until the end of the month.

$$$$$$$$$$$$$$

yes yes yes!!!

Can't wait for graduation.

and starting again on my bike.

Lol.

Timecheck: Go back to wonderland.

till then.

Wondergirls are the bomb!!!

You're so hot!

2009-03-17T03:38:00.003+08:00

lalalalalalalalalala.

Wahhhh.

Just realised something about my blog.

Been expressing quite alot or whattt!!

Madness!

Haiyah. Messed up life.

Crazy.

Easy on the problems.

Like azieera said.

LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST YOS!!!

mlm st james.

Nak?

Lol.

Wow. So fast and ayan is going to be out.

Miss you sia kental.

Wonder how you would look like?

hahaha.

Da pass number fad to bunkmates blom?

lol!

Next party.

Shucks!

Gotta wait.

Money not in yet.

Damnnit.

Motor lagi.

Walauwehhhhh.

If only money can be seed and plucked once grown.

I would grow a kazillion of them.

wow...

Haiyah. Imaginations going wild.

OH!!

Outfit for abang's wedding is done.

And it's superrrrrrrrrrrrrrr not nice sia.

Fcking hell!!!

tkpela...

it's not me who is getting married.

ALL THE BEST BRO!

no. seriously.

Fad i'm not kidding.

OKAY BABY!

Time to dive into wonderland.

Going deeper into fantasy.

My bolster, bed and pillow is reaching out on me!!!!

Time to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppppppppp!!!

then wake up.

time to??

to??????

come on!

EATTTT!!

clever.

I want to act in Skins season 3.

They are fucking sick I tell you.

2009-03-16T22:12:00.000+08:00

Humans.

Us.

No matter what we do or say.

There will always be mistakes.

We usually hide or show our feelings from others.

We vent it on stuff.

We cry it out.

We laugh about it.

We smirk about it.

We blog about it.

Some prefer to be facade the act.

Put an illusion that everything is perfectly fine.

Put a face that is impossibly hard for anyone to know.

It could totally differ a person's true feeling.

Reasons varies to why humans are doing this act.

Not all are open about accepting facts about themselves.

No matter how open you said you are.

Counterbacks are just as painful.

It's how you throw your feelings.

Be it any form of the mention above or the ones that are not mention.

By giving illusions and different exterior feelings from interior.

Others might just assume.

I repeat.

ASSUME.

This always leads to misjudgement.

To assume and presume is the last thing you would want to do.

Because this always led to otherwise.

To be true to others is only being true to yourself.

Nobody knows you better than yourself.

Friends are by your side.

Acquaintances just completes the picture.

The next one who knows you better would be them besides yourself.

I wouldn't say families know you best.

They are the ones who will be with you through your most thickest and thinnest

point in life.

But they are one of the many who know least of your life.

If your family knows all and everything about you.

Congratz.

Don't brag about it.

Cos mine doesn't.

They don't even know my favourite color.

Okay side tracked.

Back.

Friends would be the ones you turn to.

The ones who would be there when you need them.

And not be there when you want them to.

I strongly disagree zinone is someone we do not know.

He or she knows alot about us.

To be tagging at boards is just an act of attention.

If you don't, why would you even thought about it?

I do agree with it.

But why to the public?

And just to correct.

What's the purpose of a blog then if not to blabber about your life?

Define your meaning of blog if not to blabber then.

And I'd only claim it once.

How avid of a reader are you?

If you really know us.

You would know what to do next.

It goes to show you love attention.

It's more than just words and expressions.

I miss my friends.

I want money real quick.

Ok go.

Setto Smile!

2009-03-08T22:06:00.000+08:00

Breathe slow.

Counting 1 to 10 with my eyes closed.

Everything is going too fast for me.

I need something to slow it down.

There's so many things on my mind.

It kind of got a little wrong along the way.

Didn't have as much fun as before.

I don't know what is up now.

Everything is still vivid in my mind.

I don't even know what's up with me.

Yes ifah.... Its all in your fingertips.

" Yer ijal? Nak air?? Ape ifah? Makan? Blanjer? ok2 no problem!"

Lol.

Like they say.

I've said the things I shouldn't have.

I made the mess.

So I'm gonna clean it up.

Damn. I'm so stupid.

Just when I want it to stop.

It's coming back.

It's here.

I'm reluctant about the final say.

Everything feels so real and nice.

But its too good to be true.

I already made my promises.

My pact.

Why is everything going off course again?!

I know things will not always follow with the plan.

Plans are just guidelines to follow.

No one can predict the future.

I know it.

Something is not right.

It's a fucked up feeling.

Fucking hell.

I just don't see the point in repeating.

I already mentioned it to you before.

It's how you deal with it.

The brain is made for the usage of thinking.

So use it well.

From strangers to friends.

From friends to foes to friends.

I really appreciate everything.

It's been so fast.

Cherish every moment I am with all of you.

To Kak Sira,

Sorry. I've been so damn busy lately.

I don't have time to text you.

I will ask you out one day.

Ok? Promise.

But not sure when.

Just hang on aite.

Please.

For me.

Ily.

Letter of verdict please come quick.

I've seen the rest go by.

Sadness and all.

But after a while it turns out okay.

Just a few months or weeks of confinement.

And away from society.

I can do it.

Lol.

Macam paham.

You still linger in my mind.

Your voice.

Your smile.

OMFG.

Haha.

I want to go archery.

Anyone with me??

Wishing.

Waiting.

Hoping.

2009-03-05T02:14:00.002+08:00

I need to get this off my thick skull.

It's been in there for days.

Let me warn you.

This entry is going to be draggy.

Full of unwanted emotions.

But I need to express it somewhere.

I was normal.

I was having fun.

Things happen.

It took me time to adapt.

I wish I could be at 2 places at one time.

I really really wish.

Wishes that I know would never come true in a kazillion years.

There's something missing.

I can't figure out what.

I want to be happy.

Well I do look happy.

But that's on the cover.

Like books.

The cover is all well printed.

Nicely done with the colours.

Patterns.

And beautiful, powerful, chim english words.

The contents.

All different.

All over the place.

Happiness is only real when its shared.

I believe that.

I think I'm being selfish.

I hate that feeling.

When I heard about that friend.

I want to live life to fullest.

I'm really feeling you.

I felt really bad about it.

I hope that friend enjoy their life.

That friend deserves it.

I don't know what I'm feeling anymore.

It kinda sucks to get that.

Well I think I deserve it.

I don't know.

You decide.

Count 1 to 10 with your eyes closed.

I need that antidote.

Ashley Parker Angel is freaking cool.

Lol.

2009-03-02T18:46:00.010+08:00

Well. Didn't went out the way I wanted it to be.

Forgive and Forget they say.

Met ayan last minute.

Wanted to watch movie.
So went on with the plan.

Upon reaching the destination.

To our dismay.....

It's FREAKING CLOSED.

NOTHING.

ABSOLUTELY NOTHING.

brrrr. sembarang sembarang.

head back to tamp.

and chill session all the way.

and we made a lil something.

I present to you our very own.

Strawberry Nachos on the Rock.

Yeap. We are that creative.

Lol.

My first random post.

Friday.

Saturday.

Sunday.

Party all night long.

Oh well.

There goes my pay.

I want another job.

D&D is coming really really really soon and I still don't know what to wear.

SOMEBODY HELP ME!

Things aren't always working the way you want it to.

All I can do now is just go with the flow.
You can't please everyone all at the same time.

BLOODY REBEL .

LOL.

2009-03-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

Like I said.

I live to eat.

LOL.

Key you sibuk arh.

HAHA.

Tired of working.

I always get the boring position.

And I can't wait for my first pay.

Damn it.

So many things to do.

So little time.

So little cash.

Rebel was fun.

Even though it's like a ghost town.

The songs are gooooooooood.

Expecially the last song.

Sembarang! Sembaraaaaang!

lol.

It was really unplanned.

Impromptu.

Thank god its worth the last minute.

Thanks azie. shima. ayan.

You guys really made my day.

awww...

let's get married.

Its happening so fast.

Is it wrong to tell a lie?

Or just keeping quiet?

Is it still a lie?

Truth hurts.

Break offs are even hurtful.

Things happen for a reason.

I want to believe that.

I hope the reason is clear.

2009-02-25T01:29:00.004+08:00

I'm starting to miss school already.

Teh.

Burger Special.

Mee kway teow campor.

Nuggets.

Oops!

All food.

hahahaha.

Ok actually missed being late for school.

The thrill is there.

Lol.

Well. Now.

I'm just bumming and waiting for the verdict letter to come.

Oh gosh.

Please please please.

Amin.

I don't get you.

He is never wrong about everything

I'm the black sheep.

I'm the party pooper.

I'm all the bad things you can think of.

It's true when they say all good things is not seen.

Once a rotten apple is spotted.

All the apples would be rotten as well.

I don't have time to act infront of you.

All his mistakes is blamed on me.

If you think he is so perfect, disown me then.

So what if he is giving money to you??

Big deal.

I just can't believe how shallow you can be.

I respect and love you.

That's all I got to say.

I really can't wait for the day to come.

Keep on blaming me.

If you think I'm the worst.

You don't know what's worse.

I'm turning 20 for crying out loud.

Dear blog.

Please tolerate my complaints.

It's a major traffic jam here.

The red and green lights won't work anymore.

I don't even think pedestrian would even dare to cross.

I hope it ends soon.

All of it.

I'm tired.

Dealing.

Tolerating.

Controlling.

Suffering.

Enough is enough.

2009-02-24T00:59:00.000+08:00

Meet Nur Farhana Begum.

Lol.

She's my sexy cousin.

It's her 20th birthday.

So here goes.

Happy birthday to you!

Happy Birthday to you!

Happy Birthday to Yana!

Happy Birthday to you!

I Love You.

Lol.

I'm only working for a freaking 2 days this week.

Like what the hell.

So many plans for next week.

So I got to be a good boy this week.

"yer mak?? cuci pinggan mangkok? ok.

kemas bilik? ok.

cuci toilet? eh sembarang."

Lol.

Ipen, I need more stupid riddles.

I'm really bad at it.

Q is 10 times better at guessing it.

Gosh! I suck at it.

Big time.

Deception and lies.

Part of lives.

Alteration had to be made.

Compromisation.

No questions asked.

Don't come back.

As good as dead and gone.

A new chapter begins

2009-02-22T15:20:00.000+08:00

Flea Market

Last Day in Temasek Poly

That's all for now.

I got to go.

I'll update the other photos on another time.

I miss school.

Nat! Teh or bustop?

Lol.

Bye!

2009-02-20T04:16:00.004+08:00

Blog was under construction for the last few days.

And i'm done with the skin.

haha.

I'm not schooling anyway.

Oh did I tell you?

I'm NOT SCHOOLING ANYMORE!!!!!!!!!

Madness or whatttt!

Now this is the real life.

Life of the hilly billys.

Lol.

Been facing some hiccups on my journey of life.

Problem 1: Solved.

Well that's settled.

For now.

Don't know if anything crops up any sooner or later.

But hope nothing happens.

I'm glad we had that talk.

It is certainly worth the while.

Problem 2: NOT SOLVED!

Damn!

I'm always stuck at that one.

It's irreplaceable.

Constantly drying out.

Everytime.

Without fail.

Its gone just like that.

Updates........

Had a flea market over the weekend.

It was a BLAST!!!

We collected more than $600!!!!!

Cool shit or whattttttt!!!

It was a really fun experience.

It was certainly really good for us the first-timers.

Despite the hot weather we made it through.

Lol!

Will post the pictures later.

Last day of school was kinda lame.

Just went for a pathetic 20 minutes test.

I rather continue with my sleep.

Didn't really had a proper last day of school event.

Just went out to eat at some kopitiam.

And I swear its scorching hot outside.

Can't stand the weather.

I'm charred enough to be charred even further.

I had fun.

Lots of fun.

Really. The best night ever.

Was pretty much unplanned.

I'm glad I found you.

You changed my perceptions and my well-being.

And I'm glad I found you back.

You were there when I needed you.

I really owe you guys big time.

I want to rewind time.

and whine it all up.

WOOOHOOO!

Ah Choo Ah Hui ah Ah Tan Tek Ah Gong gong!!!

That's all for now.

Can't wait to crash my bed.

I need my bed so badly.

It's calling my name I tell you.

Will post the pictures the next time.

Maybe tomorrow.

Alright Kak Sira?

Lol.

Ily.

Are back here?

Please give me a sign.

Any sign.

I'm begging.

Anyways. Nasi goreng affyq sedap.

hahaha.

Makansutra!